que sara sara

"... What a wonderful phrase. Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze. It means no worries, for the rest of your days. It's our problem-free philosophy - Hakuna Matata!"

in a few mins time, i would have succeed in wasting my whole weekend. the title is to attribute what i spent the past three days doing. i AM such a tv addict. whatsoever. tomorrow is another day :D

this is great. i've been in a holiday mood every since math paper. and behaving as if it's already the hols. so much for determination.

[The Cranberries]

As the snow flies
On a cold and grey Chicago morning
A poor little baby child was born
In the ghetto
And his mama cries
Cause if there's one thing she don't need
It's another hungry mouth to feed
In the ghetto

So people won't you understand
The child needs a helping hand
Or he'll grow to be an angry young man some day
Take a look at you and me
Are we too blind to see
Do we simply turn our heads
And look the other way

Well the world turns
And a poor little boy with a runny nose
Plays in the street while the cold wind blows
In the ghetto
And his hunger burns
So he starts to roam the streets at night and he learns how to steal
And he learns how to fight
In the ghetto

Then one night in desperation
A young man breaks away
He finds a gun and steals a car
And he tries to run but he doesn't get far
And his mama cries

As a crowd gathers round an angry young man
Face down on the street with a gun in his hand
In the ghetto

As her young man dies
On a cold and grey Chicago morning
Another little baby child is born
In the ghetto

ever so often, we yearn for things that we do not have and forget how incredibly blessed we already are.

in the first place, i shldnt be here now. i shld be staring at and making sense of math. four paper gone. but the surrealness of it being the PRELIMS havent quite faded. it's quite a joke that prelim's supposed to make you realise what you are weak in and eventually let you work on it. cos so far, all i've realised is that i dont know much. so how does the part of work-on-what-you-are-weak-in come in?

after almost 7 hours of exam, this is what i have learnt:

1. teachers like to scold people for coming late into the exam hall. when we werent allowed into the venue in the first place.
2. the school needs bigger clocks. or i need to change specs.
3. there's no point studying just before the exam. the related ques wont appear or that every single fact flies out of your mind after staring at the ques.
4. i need to expand my vocab.
5. writing continuously for 2h15min causes permanent damage to your hand.
6. being able to write about nothing for 2h15min makes you want to thank your ex geog teachers

i cant give directions for nuts. "how do you get to _____?" and my slow brain will creak into action. trying desperately to recall the limited number of road names i can actually remember. failing which, will try to use landmarks (provided there is one in the first place) to give what can be termed as incomprehensible instructions. and then i'll pray that the person will not get even more lost. or that i will never see the person again. most of the times, it's both.

山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明又一村

came to the realisation that there are times the more you try to understand something, the less you actually do. but who cares right? isn't life all about falling down and standing up again? so shall (try to) worry less and embrace whatever life brings more. que sara sara.

all the best for prelims everyone! :)

[Gareth Gates]

For everyone, the story goes
There's a special someone to make them whole
Someone to give their heart completely

And you may search high and low
But when you find your angel how will you know?
And when you finally get that feeling
It'll be as clear as the air you're breathing

That's when the world feels small beneath your feet
It's when the stars above are only just out of reach
When you feel you're alive for the very first time
And there's nothing that you can't rise above
That's when you know that you're in love

Who can tell the time and place
When you see your soul reflected in their face
It'll be a spell you're under
And it'll hit you just like thunder

That's when the world feels small beneath your feet
It's when the stars above are only just out of reach
When you feel you're alive for the very first time
When you hold them in your arms
And can't let go that's when you know

For all of my life
I have been searching for something I couldn't find
But now that I know that you are the one
I understand I read the signs

Cos now the world feels small beneath my feet
And all the stars above are only just out of reach
When you feel you're alive for the very first time
And there's nothing that you can't rise above
That's when you know that you're in love
That's when you know

he has such a nice voice!

Since light travels faster than sound, people appear bright until you hear them speak.
How come "abbreviated" is such a long word?
Success is a relative term. It brings so many relatives.
"Your future depends on your dreams." So go to sleep.
There should be a better way to start a day than waking up every morning
"Hard work never killed anybody"But why take the risk?
The more you learn, the more you know, the more you know, the more you forget; the more you forget, the less you know. So, why learn?

and those who are on/intend to go on a diet, go read "Engineer's Diet" (http://silversurfer.diary-x.com/journal.cgi?entry=20040814b)

setting boiling tubes on fire is strangely nice.
i'll probably dream of photocopying machines and paper chasing me tonight.
i LOVE my class!

State of being hostile; antagonism or enmity.

Result of insufficient sleep. who am i to determine what is not important anyway? but i can't help it. apologies to all the people who have no choice but to bear with me.

6 days and counting. hope is running out.

we're supposed to close this particular chapter in our lives. feels rather weird.

j1s did a good job. love the innovative farewell gift that am still in the process of digging the stuff out.

saints odac '03/'04. you guys really rock (indescribable). will forever be second to none in my heart! :D

went to my grandparents' house to settle cocoa tree vouchers with my aunts after math mock exam today. which btw was crap. in the first place, they shouldnt make us do a 3-h paper in a small crammed seat with a pathetic tablet. cos back and shoulder felt weird after that. not that it was mdm seet's fault though.

anw, love going back to the house i grow up in. even though i hardly go back as often now. as usual, grandparents would ask about studies and whether had enough pocket money etc etc. was trying to explain to them the impossible-to-do-well-in exams system in JC. didnt felt as though they grasped the idea. despite that, i still marvelled and enjoyed the simplistic way they saw the situation. i guess after living in the world for all these while, they managed to 看透 a lot of things. asked me if i passed and that is already a good step forward (hahaz... if only all my teachers think that way). it proved comforting. even if it's only for the one plus hour i was there. i love my grandparents!

on my way home, launched into another no-solution-to-the-problem conversation with dad. was talking about the failure of the education system. for one, some of the cleverest people i know dont exactly do well in exams. "taught to be merely exam smart". how true. the irony of working our butts off (or at least trying to) for that piece of poorly laminated cert which would eventually be left forgotten in a box at one corner of the house.

those who invented the concept of studying should have been hypnotists.

for those of us who lack the motivation to study or keep to it, dont be disheartened. as "we know nothing about motivation. all we can do is write books about it." (peter drucker) and that "to spend too much time in studies is sloth." (francis bacon)

happy mugging people :D

for a sch that decided to drag a game of musical chairs for one hour just for an ex-saint to sing ONE pathetic verse of a song, it has cleverly decided to put prelims extremely early. for what i guess would be to make us realise earlier that we will fail the A levels after all. how smart.

progress today: proteins, carbohydrates, lipids. and i learnt from chris that it's for only two ques. yay!

now i'll just have to figure how to get out of it

• strange that people still wonder why i cut my hair 3 weeks after the haircut
• mentioned some time ago that S'pore is small. until today that i realised the extent of smallness
• studying continuously cause increasing doubts and no answers
• always check stationery before leaving a place after studying :P
• 4 3/4 cups of beverages is not such a good idea. esp if 2 cups are caffeinated
• plaza s'pore is female-patron unfriendly. try finding a usable washroom during the weekends
• I, Robot is fascinating and rather cheem
• some people just shldnt plan camps. they cause others too much grief and frustrations