que sara sara

i cant believe i'm spending my long weekend mostly at home ploughing through the notes and texts. where have my friends gone to?!?!?! not that doing such a hardworking thing -rolls eyes- is bad. considering i take an average of two hours to read up on one seminar worth of stuff per course. (i need to speed read soon. somehow.) just that it's such a waste consiering that i may never get to fully enjoy the long weekend again thanks to all the commencing projects. most of which i have no clue as to how to start.

anw, i conclude that i shld no longer plan. cos nothing works out. in fact, not planning seems to reap better usage of time. i know this logic is extremely warped but hey! there's always the Murphy's Law.

"i still dunno..." i was actually refering to lunch when she told me the exciting and interesting news that kept me excited and interested for the next few hours. i love it when people tell me news/gossips on their own accords. because you'll never expect them. we had a lot of fun speculating the reactions of the rest who are not yet informed.

just sitting down and talking to a good friend can be so fulfilling. sometimes i wish that time can extend for more afternoons like this.

the title describes the very first course i took in uni. it's kinda like a cross between econs and gp. after three hours, i still:
(a). cant really pronounce my prof name.
(b). am trying to figure out what i'm supposed to know.

yay.

seminar style is quite interesting though. at least the amount of interaction in class keeps me from falling asleep. esp after nine months of not schooling. and my class has quite a number of international students which is cool.

honestly, i still feel pretty alone in sch. everyone seems to know everyone alr. the people are friendly and all but i get the feeling that i-do-not-belong. that's what happens when a significant number of your friends live in the west/decide to attend schools in the west/both.

and for all those out there who are complaining about having to purchase textbooks, hear this: i need textbooks for every other course and i have erm... let's see 35 courses to take.

as we are born to live, we live only to learn. as we are born to learn, we learn only to love. and as we learn to love, we begin to live.

i wonder why they call it an academic briefing when i dont feel briefed in the first place. less than 50% of what i was told was new to me. anw, i wasnt in the same room as the speakers. attended the briefing through a webcast due to insufficient seats. everything is so technologically advanced that i feel i have to be schooled in how to use the facilities before i can start lessons proper.

current preassigned timetable puts me as having to go to school four times a week. i have no idea whether it is the confirmed version for the first sem. since i'm exempted from 4 courses (which up till now i have no idea if i still need to sit for exams for them), i'm considering the possibility of cramming other courses in place of them. for what purpose? hopefully, i can graduate faster. which doesnt even seem remotely possible but one can always hope.

i have no problem with having to plan. just that having to plan for everything within a spcific timeframe with a million and one restrictions is not really very fun to do. i may have to start on a flow chart soon.

and biao, i do intend to work parttime. but first i'll have to settle timetable, settle into sch, settle for cca and most imptly, convince parents (who are currently in this alternate realm that has them saying "we want you to be independent but no... we dont want you to work") before i can do anything abt parttime employment.

yup! i'm having the time of my life now.

to think that i believed in the goodness of people and that all i'll get is being supersoaker-ed. thankfully, the cynical side of me decided to play it safe and i refused to change out of my uniform.

i think they somehow knew that i will clean up my mess. so i was ambushed in the kitchen when i attempted to retrive the mop. nothing much happened. just that i was grabbed from behind, forcefully restrained and had whipping cream smeared all over my face and hosed down. no amount of screams and struggles on my part allowed me to escape from the 3 perpetrators. and the rest of my lovely colleagues suddenly decided to be innocent by-standers armed with digicams despite their claims that they love me.

i managed to take my revenge after giving chase around half of rx, getting locked outside the outlet and a few exhausting fights (the exhaustion is felt today which goes to show that i need to exercise). now if i could get my hands on those cameras, i will perhaps be able to perserve whatever that's left of my reputation.

the gifts i received are very cool and touching. in fact, reading what they wrote for me almost made me cry. for now, they'll remain on the floor until i find a place to hang the frame.

that concludes my 7-month working slint before sch starts. and i miss my colleagues already.

[Kan Kon]

There once was a time and there once was a way
We had something going and to my dismay
Attention to me seemed to drift though I don't know where

And when we're alone seems there's nothing to say
I bring up a topic and you push it away
You say that you do but I think it's just you don't care
Why do I feel you're using me

Are we an item or are we just two
I need some commitments all I ask of you
Your lifestyle can change
Don't be 'fraid what you think's in store

I know what's on your mind you've got lots to lose
Your shallow acquaintances what's there to choose
You won't get too deep even though I'm worth so much more

So think about it carefully

Smile for a while and let's be jolly
Love shouldn't be so melancholy
Come along and share the good times while we can

Do you want to hustle?
Do you want to salsa?

Do you want to hustle?
Do you want to salsa?

If that's how you want it; that's how it'll be
There's no use in trying or making you see
That love don't come easy you don't know what it's about

To get things together won't take any pain
Don't need to see/hear from you ever again
From this day on listen but no more
Please count me out, and you know what I'm talkin' about

Smile for a while and let's be jolly
Love shouldn't be so melancholy
Come along and share the good times while we can

I know now's the time that I went to find something new
You know it's your crime that I'm out to find someone too

i'm kinda tired of sending out sms-es to pp without receiving any reply. so pp pls take the hint. hahas... with regards to the above mentioned problem, a particular mr chiang suggested that perhaps a blank msg shld be sent as a form of acknowledgement that the msg is received if the recipient is too lazy to think of a reply. strange way of doing things but guess that'll also do.

came to the conclusion that i'll never ever be prepared for sch. my room looks exactly the same way since the last day of the As. i think it became worse cos without having to use the table, it doubled as a dumping ground for my stuff. c.o.n.g.r.a.t.u.l.a.t.i.o.n.s to me.

i'm kinda quite very broke. see the denial there. not in the literal i-have-no-money-left-to-spend way. but in the i'm-spending-too-much-of-my-hard-earned-money-for-my-own-good way. and i keep coming up with justifications to spend more.