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i happened to stumble across my chat logs today. kinda fun to read what crap you have once talked online. considering that i didnt even notice the folder in the first place, i have stuff more than one year ago. hahaz... with that, i also realise that there are people who i have once talked to a lot but no longer do so now. i should go 反省.

i realise it sometimes dont take a lot to make me happy. i shld have more happy days. :D

the ability to sustain a conversation when two pp conversing are talking about two entire differernt topics <-- is it a sign of true friendship or senseless blabbering?

do pp feel disconnected when they travel around the world? i suddenly find friends around me planning to go overseas for periods longer than short term but shorter than long term. perhaps am a creature of habit. already too comfortable in this little shell of mine to want to venture far. so am i near-sighted or privileged to think this way?

skill that i came a little bit more to perfecting this weekend. i lack life.

Urticaria are raised, red, itchy areas of the skin which are commonly known as hives, wheals or welts. The quantity, color, and shapes of hives can vary. The color can vary from light pink to dark red, depending on the amount of fluid build up. The shape of the wheals are usually round, although bizarre patterns occasionally develop. They can last from a few hours to several weeks or months.

Hives are usually the result of an allergic reaction that causes a release of histamine from cells in the skin. The histamine then causes the blood vessels to dilate and leak fluid, causing the skin to swell. This swelling irritates the nerve endings, which results in the itching sensation.

The common factors that are known to induce hives are food allergens, environmental factors, drugs, infections and infestations, synthetic products, emotional factors, systemic and general disease, physical factors and idiopathic causes.

oh great. just what i need. another allergic reaction. since it can be caused by practically evrything and anything, dont think i'll find the cause. i didnt know that my skin can be in such a blotchy state. anw, it's kinda strange. cos i was alright in sch but got progressively worse when i got home. so kathy, i did get tricked and shld have listened to you. perhaps i have drucula hives. they only come out at night. hahaz... sorry but the itch is too distracting for me to think much else.

oh crap. the itch from all the spots over my legs are killing me. feels like obs when i got attacked by insects. just that now am cleaner and there's less reason behind the appearance of spots this time.

"I have fought a good fight, I have finished (my) course, I have kept the faith" 2 Ti. 4:6
the verse they kept repeating today and now it's resounding in my head.

the lastest season of amazing race is over. and watching it somehow triggered an overwhelming sense of loss. my fav couple didnt win. but the loss is not because of that. to digress, was rooting for colin and christie though they can be terribly assholic. hahaz... they were great tactically. no body would have thought of booking a car, waiting for them at the airport the moment they touched down. but being yielded by chip and kim made them faltered too much. and they didnt recover sufficiently to achieve the final prize.

the feeling of wanting to cry yet not being able to sucks. plus it always come with a dull ache in my heart. the sense of loss stems from the thought of graduating soon. it's either am getting more emotional over time or that i spend too much time thinking. cos graduating from pri and sec schs didnt trigger the same intensity of emotions. there are just too many memories encapsulated in my mind and recored in all the diaries that i have. perhaps five years down the road, all these memories will fade into nothingness esp with my ablity to only retain short term stuff.

that's why i dont feel like fighting the fight or finishing my course. despite all the irritations and irritants, i do want to remain here. in transition but never transiting. the numbers of first(s) and and the myriad of experiences hold me back. but i do know that i have to move on eventually. just let me dwell on it a little longer.

much as i hate to be right about certain things, i happen to be today and i dont even derive any pleasure about being right. once is an accident, twice may be a coincidnece but it's three times too many.

evrything was within expectations so far. which is not much considering the lack of effort on my part.

and i discover that the points for class appt were the same regardless of the number of years. so why cant she re-elect the posts to benefit everyone esp those who require the marks to make the grade. am not bitter abt the result cos i love my class and things cant simply be measured by points. i just dont get why she cant have a little bit more heart and concern for the class which she claims to care for and worry about.

[Counting Crows featuring Vanessa Carlton]

They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
With a pink hotel, a boutique, and a swingin' hot spot
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot

They took all the trees, and put em in a tree museum
And they charged the people a dollar and a half to see them
No, no, no Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
They paved paradise, and put up a parking lot

Hey farmer, farmer, put away your DDT
I don't care about spots on my apples,
Leave me the birds and the bees
Please Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
Hey now, they paved paradise to put up a parking lot
Why not

Listen, late last night, I heard the screen door slam
And a big yellow taxi took my girl away
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
Well, don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
They paved paradise to put up a parking lot
Why not?They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
Hey hey hey Paved paradise and put up a parking lot

I don't wanna give it
Why you wanna give it
Why you wanna giving it all away Hey, hey, hey
Now you wanna give it
I should wanna give it
Now you wanna giving it all away
Hey, paved paradise to put up a parking lot

just watched two weeks' notice. like watching sandra bullock though all her characters are more or less similar.

快乐的时光总是显得非常短暂。

had my first ever baking unsalvagable mess today. not quite a disaster cos knew what i was doing. just... unsalvagable. agaration has finally failed me. hahaz... not bad considering how often i used agaration. right debbie? and the fact that people should only see the final products of f&n students has been proven. my aunt couldnt believe the kitchen would be that way every single time i baked.

my grandma is my biggest fan. could never get how she saw anything nice in the vile-tasting tray of "stuff" that emerged from the oven. of which every single "stuff" ended in the dustbin. other than wasting potential food, i dont feel any sense of 可惜ness throwing failed baking attempts away. (my vocab is vanishing.) i discovered what went wrong with the mixture a full 30min after my grandma did. and she didnt even look at the recipe plus the fact that the last time she baked was like 3 decades ago. am ashamed :P

i still havent done every single thing i wanted to. but i guess it's time to get back to reality.

"...Both CEOs refuted the suggestion that the partnerships signal a step back to pre-competition, monopolistic days..."
"...Consumers don't lack choices, said Mr Chan, since the free-to-air TV stations still have to compete with 50 cable channels. In the print arena, there is a plethora of foreign publications..."
"...MediaCorp, which is fully owned by Temasek Holdings..."

(extracted from TODAY)

sometimes the media really thinks that we are idiots. call me cynical but it's telling when such a thing is happening with the parent company being a govt owned one. yeapz... you do have a choice when you have the ability and willingness to pay for it. whatever. i live on cable anw.

other than the horrible "service" we received for dinner, the night was fun. the service industry in Singapore needs to buck up. service charge should be voluntary or people will just take it as given that they can have crappy attitude and get away with geting paid for the so-called service they rendered.

somehow, it's kinda fun to watch a person go hysterical unwrapping layers of wrapping paper, seemingly unable to get to the eventual present. (sorry shihui ;p) it's also a joy to see a person deriving so much joy from receiving presents you've contributed to.

coffee has strange effects on people. some feels sleepy after drinking. others feel insomniac. i just feel... full.

人善被人欺. there are some underlying issues that should not remain unresolved.

my father is my real father, my grandfather is my real grandfather but my great-grandfather is not my real great-grandfather. he's actually my grandfather's uncle. so my surname is in fact lee. so for the past 18 and 1/2 years, been having a pseudo surname and identity(?). machiam chinese drama serial. i shld talk to my parents more. then will learn abt more strange stuff in my family:P jacqueline lee. sounds wrong.

... good for

• training long-sightedness when you try to peek at your neightbour's answers when you get stuck
• playing around with chemicals not realising that they cause permanent stains on your clothes and hands
• discover fingers-staining chemicals that often result in people asking if it was a bad bruise
• setting fire accidentally (and sometimes not so accidentally) and realise that you can keep very calm despite almost burning yourself
• gossiping with classmates on the pretext of discussing how to do the experiment
• actually seeing what you learn in books although the connection between facts and reality often eludes you

... bad for

• having to try to design experiments esp when you barely know the facts
• taking exams for them
• accident-prone people
• cant be bothered to think much aka uncreative (people) aka me

yupz... after postponing studying that thick stack of chem expt notes, am supposed to plough through and understand all of them in one night. and look what i'm doing now.

my new found hobby. hahaz... the things i do in early mornings. seems that prelims restarting in two days is not a bad thing. at least it'll keep me from being a voyeur for one week. my lack of life has put me in front of the comp to read abt the life of others. pathetic but fun. even people you dont know. just to satisfy the kaypohness. plus you never know when you'll stumble upon the blog of a friend's friend's friend's friend's (... and the list goes on)

oh yarh, after chancing upon it yet again, shall post Murphy's Law: (i recall vaguely that ms lee made me do research on that :P) If anything can go wrong, it will. that's the original one. two spinoffs that i find quite interesting also:
When in doubt, mumble. When in trouble, delegate.
Anything good in life is either illegal, immoral or fattening.

some can be rather pessimistic. but most funny. ok.. sadist. for more dosage of it, go: http://dmawww.epfl.ch/roso.mosaic/dm/murphy.html or http://www.murphys-laws.com/murphy/murphy-true.html

(this post shall remain titleless simply cos my brain has launched into automation mode.)

i have no freaking idea why am i still in front of the comp now. considering that i'll be dragged out of bed in 5 hours time to go to sch. that's the thing about hitching a ride to sch. the time is not dictated by you.

swimming and badminton yesterday was great. feels weird using "yesterday" when my day only ends when i go to bed. which means now is still today to me. finally got the over-rested muscles working. if it's only a bit. i am starting to feel sore already. but that may be due to sitting down without moving much. :p

after while-ing my whole sept hols away (almost), am faced with the daunting task of cramming 9 days worth of studies into 3. serve me right. hahaz... if this works, i can do anything. like finally have the determination to re-vamp my blog. heck, i cant even re-vamp cos i didnt do this layout in the first place.

[Monty Python]

Some things in life are bad,
They can really make you mad,
Other things just make you swear and curse,
When you're chewing life's gristle,
Don't grumble, Give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best. And...

Always look on the bright side of life.
Always look on the light side of life.

If life seems jolly rotten,
There's something you've forgotten,
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps,
Don't be silly chumps.
Just purse your lips and whistle. That's the thing. And...

Always look on the bright side of life.
Always look on the right side of life.

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word.
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin.
Give the audience a grin.
Enjoy it. It's your last chance, anyhow. So...

Always look on the bright side of death.
Just before you draw your terminal breath.

Life's a piece of shit,
When you look at it.
Life's a laugh and death's a joke it's true.
You'll see it's all a show.
Keep 'em laughing as you go.
Just remember that the last laugh is on you. And...

Always look on the bright side of life.
Always look on the right side of life.

Always look on the bright side of life! (Repeat)

that and living life to the fullest everyday. suddenly feels inspirational. :D

• writing diary 15 mins before you go out is a bad idea
• it's entirely possible to buy 13 pieces of clothing in one shot (not me :p)
• it's also possible to stay in one shop for more than an hour waiting for another person to try on clothes
• where to get good and ok-priced softshelled crab and banana fritters with ice cream
• wisma has some cool and undiscovered (by me) shopping places
• steamboat can be very very expensive
• never reject to change phones for the time being when yours' running out of batt
• conserve batt when you know that it's going to run out
• nazhar is the only person i know who can tie a cherry knot using tongue (or at least the only person who bothers to show off often enough for me to know :p)
• Swensen's staff can be darn rigid abt precedurs until you promise to pay immediately
• always check for a person's birthday immediately after remembering it but forgetting the actual date (did that make sense?)
• a birthday committee is necessary!
• "Worlds of Sports" IS a checkpoint at PlazaSing for odac guys
• fastfood restaurants are best for spending little money and lotsa time at without feeling bad

btw, i need help in exterminating ants at home. they are everywhere! i have this strong feeling that my intuition is right about something. and i wont like being right this time.

a day of over-indulgence
a day whereby the sisters came of age

(actually i cheated to get the date right ;P)

ever feel weird to call some else your name? once upon a time it did for me. but that's like a long long time ago. i have such a unique name that it oftens ends up with jacq talking to jac and sihui calling shihui(s).

now i know of 6 persons who can spend an extremely long time staring at ONE row of shelves at Carrefour, laughing themselves crazy and ended up not buying anything. to whom it may concern: try not to be obsessed about winning 4D (or the merc for that matter). though if interested in the probability of winning a particular number, i think my aunt has the whole freaking list. hahaz... ;p

i seriously wonder why the heck am i studying for. considering that (a). i will end up nowhere (b). if i ended up somewhere, i probably wont take anything related to what am studying now. what a joke siaz. btw, many thanks to the two tortured souls who endured my relentless questioning.